My Boo Radley

I thought a lot about what something that was frigthening or scary (kinda like Boo Radley), that really shaped me into the spectacular person I am today. Then it occurred to me, why does if have to be creepy or terrifying? Does something or someone bad have to scar you to make you better? Because, the thought and whole concept of heaven, the beautiful and lovely place, and meeting your maker, is one of the many thoughts that I don't understand. But, of course blogging always helps!

For me, I have many things planned. I'll graduate top of my class, attend an Ivy league college, and become a world class surgeon. But, what would happen if it all went away, where would I go?
Heaven.
Its a complex idea to comprehend. To me the first and most simple idea of Heaven should be its location, right? Where exactly is Heaven? It could be in the sky, but could God be just metaphorically speaking? What's the first thing that happens when you get there? These are one of the many questions I have on Heaven, just like Scout had about Boo Radley. In comparison, Scout doesn't know what Boo Radley looks like or know the whole truth about the mysterious circumstances of his current living situation but, she's at the point, much like I am, where the whole idea doesn't make sense, yet. But, the anticipation is unbearable and the temptation is intolerable.

What is Heaven? When I think of Heaven, I picture streets painted gold, everyone levitating, and wearing white robes. But, then again I don't know. All Scout knew about Boo was based on what she told and heard, exactly like me. Pop culture, pictures, and allusions shaped my whole mindset of what heaven is and should be. I often wonder, if wondering to much and questioning the situation will make it better because I feel that hoping for golden streets will in the end, let me down.

The main difference between me and Scout's "Boo Radley" is that she met Boo Radley and Boo ended up completely different then excepted. She now knows what has been locked up in the house all those years. I don't have any clearer picture of what life after death will look like. He was a hero to her. He put is life in danger to save a little girl that taunted him and judged him. Could this be a good thing for me? Does this mean that instead of Heaven I could actually end up in Hell? I don't know what I should except anymore, but all I can do from my position (currently on earth) is question and dream about what's next to come.

People have their opinion of heaven, just like much of the town had on Boo. Many like me, think of Heaven beauty and perfection and a large majority believe in recantation. The idea of consistently living and returning as another being on earth is interesting. The many possibilities and ideas of afterlife give me hope, to make the best out of life because that's what I know, see, hear, feel, smell and taste. I haven't experienced it all nor will I ever, but in life I have faith that all will go well. Heaven, recantation, and all the other afterlives are unknown and will forever be a mind boggling and mystifying journey that all of us venture on. Truly, growing up and knowing that from here I will go somewhere afterwards and even if I don't, my life has already expanded and open options for me in ways indescribable.